Sunday Prose: Buried in Paper

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We all knew this was not going to be a typical day before we even reached the trading floor. Absent were the usual back slapping ‘hey’s’ or ‘how’s the family’ questions, the normal tired, post commute, ‘I just need a coffee and a crueller’ conversations, shuffling through the line at the American Stock Exchange commissary that Monday morning. No, the noisy, collegial and sometimes locker room style banter was eerily missing and anyone who had come back from their posts, to grab some quick breakfast, those who knew, had creased brows and tight lips.

I remember one clerk rushing past me up the stairs saying, ‘Hold on to your fuckin’ hat, dude!’, as the coffee from the two cups he was clutching, splashed his blue trading jacket. But us clerks were always in a hurry, hell, it was written in black and white, right there in the job description.

Today, his was definitely a different kind of hurry.

He’d been a clerk for years, a one man show, deftly manning a phalanx of phones at his trading desk in the shadowed, second mezzanine level, where the scores of other phone clerks had a perfect, panoramic view of the entire trading floor. He was well regarded by his firm, all his floor brokers trusted him with their lives, a misunderstood or mistaken hand signal could cost them bigtime. My post was just below his, right in the middle of this sprawling, cavernous cave of a room and with two years under my belt, I was still a rookie in this fraternity of longtimers. He was always cool under pressure, always freon in his veins unflappable, normally.

Not this morning though, his eyes were buggin’ out of his head, doublestepping out of sight.

When I finally hit the floor, normally polite, dough bellied brokers whizzed by at speeds no one thought were possible, careening like pinballs off one another, unapologetically, fat hands and oversize pockets stuffed with trading slips, leaving criscrossing, hazy blue contrails in their wake, their bifocals exaggerating their own bugeyes. Yeah, we all had that ‘busy’ gear, the lightspeed adrenaline shot, that whooshed through our veins and hustled our pace when volume picked up, whenever the market decided to move. You didn’t survive very long if you didn’t and honestly, you didn’t survive very long if you didn’t love it, or learn to.

But whatever this was, I hadn’t seen before today. None of us had.
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It was ninety minutes before the opening bell, I quickly found my trading jacket from a drawer, inside our round, fortlette of a trading post to head off to the DK room, where all the previous days’ trades were reconciled, or not. If there was a price, quantity or time disagreement we couldn’t resolve, us clerks would say,

‘Sorry, Don’t Know ya’, and off to arbitration usually went the trade.

That routine wasn’t happening this October morning, my boss Andy made that crystal clear,

‘No one leaves, fuck the DK room!’,

in a tone so deadly serious, so unlike him, it stopped us all dead in our tracks. Andy was the specialist, was awarded the rights to trade the options of Apple, Ford and a dozen or so other stocks. Tall and lanky, he was well liked, had a sterling reputation on the floor and was as good a boss as he was a market maker. He never ridiculed us when we made mistakes, he was more than generous with bonuses and we were the only post that had two women clerks. Dianne and Susan were given every opportunity to advance, and they did. They were the best clerks among us, by a long shot.

‘Hand me the buys.’,

The traders and the clerks, all hands on deck were standing with their backs turned away from the floor, heads down, hovering over the small work areas and all I kept hearing was,

‘Where are the buy orders?’,

‘Jesus Christ, where are the fucking buy orders!?’

It was normally the clerks’ pre market responsibility, the six of us Kevin, Diane, Susan, Jack, Mike and me to timestamp and match up the 4″x 5″, Buy or Sell paper trading slips, to what we had on the ‘Book’, the inventory of option orders our post specialized in. This morning, we were shoulder to crowded shoulder with all the traders, the market makers who we worked beside but the too few desktops were not designed for this many people, the design did not anticipate this many hands, reaching frantically for so much paper. It was if a small Bobcat had come along and plop…… emptied it’s load. There was paper everywhere. We were buried.

Being ‘buried’ was slang for getting swamped. We would need a new slang word after today.

The clock was glanced at out of habit, we prided ourselves on always being ready for the open, even on a normal day the adrenaline did a little number on your heartrate as you waited for the opening bell to ring. The brokers were still flying by, throwing the slips at us now, there were no ‘sorry’s’, there was no time. Trades were scattered in small piles at our feet, we all realized the bell was going to ring and there was just no way, no freakin’ way, we were going to be ready. The communal panic was palplable.

‘We’re so fucked!’

‘What are we gonna’ do!?’

‘Holy shit, these are all market orders for the open, what the hell!?’

Every so often we’d get a Buy or Sell market order at the open, they were mostly from small investors and they were usually the last to be filled, at the worst price of day. But the market orders that were piling up, that kept coming in and piling up, wave after wave, were not from any small investors, these were the Goldmans’, the Lehmans’ and the Morgan Stanleys’, the big money boys and they were all selling at the open, all begging to get out at any price.

‘Any Buys!?’

I looked at Andy for a second, his head was bent slightly zeroing in, lazerlike at his screens. His perpetual tan had given way to a sickly grey, veins stretched across his thin skinned temple and his fingers were tapping away at a furious speed….clickety, clickety, clickety, clickety. Diane, a tough, wise ass, Brooklynite, the only clerk he trusted to trade when he was away from the post, was next to him trying in vain, to make sense of the piles of paper. Her mouth hung open as he said through lips so tight they didn’t move,

‘There are no fucking Buy orders.’

His voice was that of someone who suddenly divined his future, his fate was screaming at him in phosphorescent green digits.

“What?’, Dianne asked, her mouth still agape.

‘I said there are no buy orders.’

No one said a word, none of us clerks could quite wrap our panicked, adrenaline soaked brains around what that really meant to us, what our responsibility was when there were no buyers. The market makers knew exactly what he meant.

”Jesus, are you shittin’ me!?’

finally coming up for air, Palsie, the market maker I clerked for looked at Andy and all the blood drained from his face. They held their stare for what seemed like forever and then the bell rang, ding, ding, ding, ding, ding!

‘Feed me the orders, Palsie.’

and I did. Everyone was his pal, everyone was Palsie but I’d never seen him look any way but bloated and happy until this moment. I thought he was going to throw up all over me as he bought every sell order I handed him. So did Andy and all the other market makers at our post because that was their responsiblity, among others, to be the buyers of last resort. They made markets and were responsible for keeping an orderly market when things got busy and they all profited handsomely, most days.

Not on this day though, Monday, October 19 1987, the Dow would plunge 508 sickening points.

There was a huge outcry, an enormous expulsion of bottled up anxiety when the bell rang but shockingly, it didn’t last very long. It got quiet in a hurry and on a day like today, on a day we thought we were going to be in the shit until the closing bell, we weren’t. The sells were bought, the option prices adjusted accordingly and after a few hours we were finished with our work, the carnage was almost complete just after lunchtime. We all finally turned around and started to shake out our tensed muscles, began breathing again.

The trading floor was a ghost town, absolute dead quiet except for the occasional, quiet sobbing.

It stayed that way for the rest of the day as the Dow just continued to fall, eventually shedding over 22% of it’s value. No one said very much, a few expletives were heard, no one moved very much either except to glance up at the huge monitors scattered around the ceiling. It was the ugliest day anyone had ever experienced, even the longtimers were in shock and the alchohol started flowing well before the close, at the clubby restaurant downstairs.
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There were a lot of traditions in this tribe and they were expected to be honored, you followed them if you wanted to fit in. It was acceptable to talk honestly about your losses but it was always considered bad form, to speak about your profits.

Palsie lost a third of his net worth that day, Andy closer to 40%.

Mike, the clerk who worked next to me was pretty animated that Black Monday, much more than usual. He was an odd bird, he was quick with the quotes and rarely made mistakes but he was a little off, never quite meshing with the tribe. Though we had that ‘otherness’ in common because I never really fit in either, he was hard to like. Mike didn’t say much, kept to himself and didn’t have much of a sense of humor either. I didn’t talk very much but I could always crack people up with my one liners. Humor was a valuable commodity on the floor and if you could make people laugh, you were golden.

Mike had a thick body and a very small head, slim, dry lips and beady eyes, and eyelids that seemed to be compressed by the gravitational pull of his heavy forehead, covered with a very small, toupee like mat of dirty, blond hair. He came in the next day and had a grin plastered on his face and as hard as he tried to contain it, he just couldn’t. Finally he fessed up, he had made a ton of money on options that Black Monday, a quarter of a million dollars to be exact, buying cheap, out of the money Puts, the further the market tanked, the more money he made. While Andy and Palsie were licking their wounds and tallying their losses, he announced a plan to buy a big, new house with his windfall.

Andy, seething a little asked him,

‘So… Mike, are you going to tell us how you knew the market would tank?’

‘Well, you know my brother works for Morgan Stanley, he called me Friday afternoon and told me Morgan would hit the market huge, with programmed sell orders on Monday morning. So I bought all the cheap Puts I could find, last Friday. Hey, they just wanted out.’

We stood there stunned, Mike had committed some cardinal sins and he either didn’t know it, or didn’t care because that grin never left his mug. Andy pounded his screen so hard, it’s hard to believe it didn’t blow up, told Dianne to watch the post and walked away.

After spending weeks trying to make sense of trades that didn’t, the piles of paper that landed in the DK room, Mike and I and hundreds of others were laid off. The DK room was ugly those few weeks, the last 2 words a trader, whose livelihood was on the line, wanted to hear was.

‘Sorry, Don’t Know ya.’

20 thoughts on “Sunday Prose: Buried in Paper

  1. You are an amazing story-teller the way you use language is so beautiful and you have a great pacing and seamless flow which is a feat my disorganized brain cannot achieve

    • WOW1 mindlovemisery, that is high praise coming from you, ty so much,
      you’ve already made my day.

      i’m borderline OCD, so i guess that comes in handy! lol i love writing
      these short short stories, i was influenced by Updike and especially
      Cheever when i was younger. before writing poetry, i wore the tag of
      storyteller but i kind of lost it for a while, even considered abandoning
      it altogether once i got the poetry bug.

      • I hope you will keep both stories and poetry you are immensely talented in both areas =) I feel more comfortable with poetry myself I tend to see the world even everyday events in quite an abstract way. You have such finesse =)

      • yes, i’m in awe of your view ofthe world, and the words you use to describe it.
        i’ve always been an obserevr, don’t say very much in real life and there are
        mental file cabinets filled with images and details of events i’ve witnessed.

        i like to say ‘i collect details that would otherwise go unnoticed’,
        i try and absorb what ‘is’, without the filter of my own bias.
        ‘what is’ in this life is pretty damn fascinating without me getting in the way! lol

      • It is fascinating but I love your take on things too lol

      • i really, really appreciate that, ’cause when you’re a quiet type like i am…
        well, it was one of the major impediments i had to begin writing at all,
        i didn’t think my take on things would resonate with anyone beside myself.

        could you please drop the link to your journal again, i went looking for
        it the other day and i couldn’t find it. or send it e mail if that’s
        more comfortable.


        I know precisely what you mean, when I first started writing it was just for me, I never shared. I joined a group writing stories with strangers I was petrified but it turned out to be pretty fun. After that I gradually started to share my poems and more personal work I didn’t know that anyone would resonate wordpress has been amazing, I’ve met some great people

      • i have too, and i’m grateful. i know for a fact i wouldn’t be writing
        with such dedication without the sharing and feedback.

  2. I was racing through the story to see what happened. You’re fabulous and hook the reader with the opening words. Great tale.

    • ty so much for telling me that hitandrun, ’cause this isn’t a subject that
      is terribly interesting to most folks. if i got you to race to the end,
      that’s just great. i try to get readers to feel as though they opened a
      door and are in the middle of the action right away, so i guess i done good. lol!

  3. Lindy Lee says:

    Capturing your reader’s interest, especially one unfamiliar with the subject matter, is a fine art of which you are in possession…

    • Lindy Lee, ty, i really appreciate you saying that. this was a chapter
      in my life i just needed to write about. i was there, and it made a
      strong impression on me. i knew when i wrote it, it wouldn;t be of
      great interest to too many readers but sometimes we just need to write
      what we need to write! ty again.

  4. Except for the f-word your piece is well presented, interesting and has a great deal of composition integrity~ Faithfully Debbie

  5. I can’t believe you were in the middle of that mess! I would never in a million years have guessed.

    You really are a great story teller. The pacing is fabulous…carries the reader on at a clip.

    And sometimes the f-word is just the only one that will suffice 🙂

    • to capture the atmosphere truthfully, there was no way not to
      use the f… word. it’s just part of the everyday banter. and ty,
      i really appreciate your praise of this story, not a subject that
      normally is very interesting to most, that you could read it all
      the way through warms my heart.

      heh, yeah, this and the next few years were an ‘interesting’ chapter
      in my life, this needed to be written to set up the story i’m writing
      as we speak which will be posted next Sunday.

  6. bgbowers says:

    I thoroughly enjoyed reading this story and the comment about language is ridiculous. A real story that involves real people in situations such as market-meltdowns is only believable when it’s portrayed accurately (which includes all kinds of characters with different voices).
    I think it’s a powerful piece of writing. Bravo!

    • WOW, ty so much Bianca, that really makes my day!it’s certainly accurate,
      and i thought it was important to truthfully portray the details. and
      it’s what happens when most of us as so severely stressed as everyone
      certainly was that day! i really appreciate you reading it through, ty.

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